I had a really good talk with my mom on the phone the other day. It was one of those conversations that I know I’ll remember. She said so many positive things to me that I have needed to hear for a long time. She filled me with life, and I can’t tell you what that did to me. In our conversation, she said something that really struck a chord with me on being intentional with our time. It may seem simple to some of you, but it had a major impact on me. Being a mother of three young children/babies is tough. Since having Weston, most days I’ve worn sweat pants and haven’t even bothered putting on make-up. That is a big deal for someone who loves fashion and enjoys being put together. I haven’t felt like myself.
Life is hard right now. Really hard. I didn’t think about how hard it would be to do simple things like shop. I have Sophie in the top part of the cart, Hamp in the big part and Weston in our wrap or carrier. I have little to no room for groceries, so we usually only pick up a couple of things at a time and get in and out as quickly as possible. People look at me with pity most of the time because one of them is usually screaming or crying. It’s embarrassing, awkward and exhausting. It can be so incredibly easy to get caught up in the every day hustle and bustle and forget to really be intentional with our time. I have a hard time enjoying certain things or really being in the moment with my children because I am usually too worried about everything going on. Are their sippy cups full? Do they need a diaper change? Have I asked Hampton to use the bathroom lately? You get the picture.
So, now that it is April, my new challenge for myself is to be intentional with my time, my children, my friends and myself. I want to go out of my way to check in with my friends or have them over for dinner. I want to run and play with my kids without thinking of what all I should be getting done. I want to enjoy my nights with my husband on the couch watching Quantico. I want to be intentional and in the moment.
This weekend, I did a lot of cleaning, but I also made sure to make time to play, and it was the most enjoyable weekend I’ve had in a long time. Going on family walks and playing in the yard and seeing how happy it made my kids was worth a million bucks!