My Christmas miracle blessing, as you may have guessed, is my son, Hampton. Last December I had some tests done. Ryan and I had been trying to get pregnant for a few months with no luck and I wanted to make sure everything was okay. On Christmas Eve last year, I got a phone call from my doctor saying that it was not okay. I had not been ovulating. At all. Do you know how devastating it was? After all those months of trying and then to find out it was never going to happen. That something was wrong with my body. That it was me who was keeping us from getting pregnant. I felt like my body had failed me. I started thinking “what have I done to make this happen?” It was devastating.
I remember sitting on the bathroom floor crying that night and begging God for not only a baby but just a little bit of hope. I didn’t want to lose hope. I didn’t want to give up and probably never would. I begged him to give me a sign that things would be okay.
During Christmas I had a very hard time getting through the day and all the festivities. I’ll never forget when my FIL asked when we were going to have kids and I had to all but run to the bathroom to ball my eyes out. It was awful. Of course they didn’t know because we had not told anyone at that time. The thought of me never being able to have children plagued my mind. I have always wanted kids. I love them so much.
At the end of January, I took an ovulation test and got a smiley face! I had ovulated! There was all the hope and sign I needed. Thank you, Lord!
My doctor is a close friend of my family’s. She is a precious woman. She prayed for me daily during those devastating months. She prescribed me clomid and my 2nd month taking it, I got pregnant!
February 21st I saw two pink lines! I cried and cried and I couldn’t wait to tell Ryan so I called him at work and balled/screamed it into the phone. He was in a meeting and had to make a quick exit. He came home for lunch and we danced around all giddy and I cried for probably 2 days straight.
Because I was on clomid I had a greater risk of miscarrying so I immediately began praying fervently. I begged God not to take this miracle from me. I told him I didn’t know if I could handle it but that I definitely didn’t want to have to handle it after everything we had already been through emotionally and physically.
I had to have my blood taken the next day and everything was confirmed. I had to have blood taken every week for the first 4 weeks and then had our first ultrasound. My baby was perfectly healthy! We told our family when I was 12 weeks along.
He blessed us with our sweet angel on October 24th, 2013. My life has changed forever and God’s timing was perfect. I told Ryan that maybe God wasn’t ready for us to have a baby until then. I am holding my baby extra close this holiday season. We are so blessed and God is so GOOD!
Merry Christmas, to all my readers! I have been so blessed by you for the last year and a half and I’m sure I will continue to be.
What are you thankful for this holiday season?
Love this!! So blessed and such a cute baby boy. My second round of Clomid worked too! 2nd round seems to be the magical one
He's absolutely adorable. Have a very Merry Christmas!
What a miracle he is!!
Beautiful photo! Merry Christmas to you and your family. Love reading your blog!
I absolutely love this story that you have shared. The holidays are so very hard for me! Not only because my son passed away at birth and would have almost been nine years old this Christmas (1-23-2005) but this year because I had a miscarriage in August after trying to get pregnant for nine months. While I'm not going to pray for a miracle this year.. to get pregnant, I am going to pray for strength– to be able to deal with another year of life without my children. And pray for those who want so badly to get pregnant and be able to be a Mother like they have always dreamed of; like I have always wanted to be. I am so happy for you!! That you were blessed with such a beautiful baby! I hope that you have the merriest of Christmases and that this new year is your most blessed yet!! XOXO
What a beautiful story and an even better Christmas gift!
This is so beautiful. I had a similar situation with a family member at Christmas (we were trying with no success). They gave me a baby blanket "for the future", and I balled my eyes out in the bathroom too. My son was also born the following October!
XO/Kelly @ Our Cone Zone
What a sweet story. I am so glad that you got your sweet baby and I hope that you guys enjoyed celebrating Christmas today!
Love this, what a great story
It is so fantastic that your prayers were answered. I think it is great that you shared this story. So many women who struggle to conceive feel alone and terrified. You are blessed to have had a struggle that was not long, but you know exactly what it feels like to have the fear that your dreams of a family won't come true.
What a beautiful story of God's faithfulness. Although I have never walked through fertility challenges, I have experienced many opportunities to give up, and lose hope. It warms my heart, and strengthens my faith, whenever I see someone else continue to hope & believe God.
Awesome… we had to have invitro w our first daughter so I can relate to the baby making stresses! we are always thankful for family.. our big giant family during the holiday season…. congrats to you and enjoy!